Memo | 08
Wea | Cold

1/2/2026
FRI

As soon as last night's stream ended, I downloaded Tubi again and watched porn. Then I repented, finished Nomad From Nowhere, Season 1, and then watched more porn, then repented and ate a peanutb u t t e r sandwich for breakfast and watched The Tick, Season 1X 1&2, a Live Action Adaptation.
But the Doctrine And Covenants says by this will you know if a man repents, if he confesses his sins and forsakes them. So unless I forsake my sin, it is not real or true repentance. Maybe that's the final push I need to truly repent. Plus I risk hell every time.

Plus I need to call my 'thought experiments' what they are: Fantasy and daydreaming, which led to my porn use.

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I felt the love of God partially, and it was the most wonderful feeling!

Notwithstanding this, I played Adventure Island 2, a lawful activity, but then did a most unlawful to God thing - looked for e ro tic audiobooks, and finding none that satisfied my tastes, settled on an Anonymous Diary of a Young Girl, repented and posted the Diary on one of my Diary Sites, listening to it until time to go to work.

When I got to work, the lights were out and Sue called an electrician to fix her breaker box. Now I'm sitting in the front of the store in an easy chair sipping my Pepsi, about to listen to more of the girl's Diary and update my Computer Journal until I wish to start work after the lights come back on sometime.

It's unlikely the electrician is open today so I'll have to work in a new area of the store where there is light.

I was just about to start work when I spilt Pepsi all over Sue's carpet and on my phone and on my Diary. Thank God it did not fry my phone. I wiped it up with paper

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towels.
6:15 PM CST 
I'm streaming Good,,,,,,,,,,, 1, the Thumbnail being Sunshine asmiles and on the stream, Gretel's Diary (Anonymous) and hopefully , videogames!
Making noodles and cream 'o chicken soup.
I got to page 16 of Kingsblood Royal before beginning to cook my supper, with which I will be drinking my second Pepsi.
I think I will listen to a new Mack Bolan Audiobook I don't own the book of and haven't read as I

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transfer discord data today, as one of the things I do after my stream ends.

Tomorrow is on her cat tower looking out the window.

Gretel has a homo sex u al attraction and stopped believing in heaven a long time ago. Sad. And she lost first her mother, then her father, and became an orphan. Her Diary ended abruptly.

In my stream, I played Super Mario Bros 3 with Josh and RAID: Shadow Legends, and played the entire Sherlock Holmes short story The Case of the Empty House on Librivox (in the public doman) on YouTube from my TV, for my YouTube audience. Then I ended my stream at 9 PM CST.

While streaming I read Spencer's Jihad History book, and after the stream I re-listened to the rest of the Case of the Empty House, this time on audible, from where I left off. I have other activities to do tonight.

Worked.
Shelved Nora Roberts.
Got 1-Year Bible.
Read Genesis 1-10 IV.
Started Kingsblood Royal by Sinclair Lewis. Got a
free Mack Bolan
Book for Christmas
from Sue.

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