10/31-
FRI
PROTESTANT REFORMATION DAY

Boy those were terrible, terrible shows I watched last night chasing that first high but never achieving it,

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and so fell again doing the same thing I kept doing for over 20 years to chase that high. Apostle Jeff told me I know what to

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do because he told me that I need to replace my sin with the Holy Spirit, but so far, I have not, but wanted to do what I have wanted to

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do and have only feigned surrender to God and His Spirit. I'm tired of playing all these games with God where I tell Him the lie that I'll do better

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but just keep on doing the same thing. I've got to do something new or I won't make it into God's Kingdom. So what can I do differently? How do

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I replace my sin with the Holy Spirit? I asked Apostle Jeff how he did it and he blocked me. He told me I already know what to do because he

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told me. God, how do I replace my sin with the Holy Spirit? What can I do differently that I have not already tried? Please tell me? I asked you

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the other night to send help and I believe you told me you gave me the power to be continent but here I am fallen again. I really do want

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your help Lord. I want to surrender. Last night I asked you to take my sin from me, and I told you I really didn't want it anymore. Is there

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really no help for me anymore? Just the other night You took me to heaven and told me I was not condemned. What do I do? I will do anything you ask

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to rid me of my sin. If I have to just say no to it and stop listening to people who tell me its not a sin or its not a big deal

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or that I can't live without it, that saying no to it is killing me and its impossible to starve the

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appetite for porn because its like a caged tiger, if I stop listening to those people and start listening to you that says

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I have the power within me to say no EVERY TIME and if satan comes to me a hundred times in a night I need to

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resist him a hundred times in a night like Joy says, then maybe somehow I can keep that going long enough for you to tell Ken that it's finally

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time for me to be Baptized. Forgive me Father for doubting the whole Restoration for a brief time while I was at the Bookstore

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listening to the Muslim's Testimony wondering why Jesus Christ our creator didn't say a word to him about the

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Restoration, why one young man seems to have a testimony that Joseph Smith is a false prophet who is in hell, why one woman had a

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NDE supposedly telling her LDS temples were legit, or at least one of them was and why no one has NDE's that ever mention the

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Restoration or Joseph Smith at all as being a necessary part of salvation, and why the one book of Restorationist Near Death Experiences I read,

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Visions of Glory as told to John Pontius, has a bunch of false stuff in it, why Jesus seems to be leading the Restoration six

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or seven ways at the same time, telling the various Prophets that they are the only True Prophet, and telling

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the JCRB that only Christ is the True Prophet, and telling one group to 'be aware of other Restoration groups' (Did He mean beware of them or be cognizent of

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them? ?) and that other Restoration Groups have claimed to have the Sealed Records. But then I remind myself that those other

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supposed Sealed Records are patently false from what I have read myself, he said be aware, not beware, and that Jesus Christ

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can only give us what we have prepared our hearts to receive, and that the different Restoration Groups were each successors

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to the previous until the Dawn of the Restructured Church and that the RLDS was in Apostasy under Fredrick M. Smith

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because of Supreme Directational Control, which is why Rebaptism into the Church of Christ-Temple Lot with the

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Elijah Message was a requirement for all back then and is not now - not since 1984, when the first Restoration Branches of Jesus Christ were chartered.

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There was one older man who had a Near Death Experience who asked Jesus to show him the True Church and he joined the Remnant and said

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in his video that most churches operated under the Firstborn son of satan, or as Mark Sohlden put it, a

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copycat Jesus. There is also a false "holy spirit". This false Jesus captivates many believers. Yes the True Christ, or Christus Veritas, does bless some churches

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and Ministries with the blessings of the True Holy Spirit and God the Father, but most of the world is deceived by satan and his firstborn son.

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I bore witness on Steve Hassen's (famous Mormon deconstructor) YouTube Channel of the Truth of the Restoration and my Redeemer and Lord, and am

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Watching Tucker Carlson interview Nick Fuentes.

Am at Joshes. We plan on watching YouTube videos on his Roku TV. We started with an Introduction to David

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Alexander, a Latter Day Saints convert, who puts into controversy the nefarious plan of Pastor Jeff for LDS Saints to Apostasize

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from the Utah LDS Church.
Then it was Joshes turn. (We had flipped a penny to see who chose first. I had had first choice,

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because he had called 'Tails' and it came up 'Heads,' which I had by default.
Josh chose a DMX dirtbike wipeout compilation.

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Next he said he had a bad feeling about today and he wanted to meditate. So I suggested Christian meditation music (Dappy T Keys) but he elected to listen instead

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to some New Age stuff "for Negative energy" so I left the house and asked him to call me when the music was over.
When I left his house, instead of listening

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to the music, he took a nap, then said he had to clear his head, so he walked up to Casey's and bought us Pepsis, then we returned to the unfinished BMX

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dirtbike Wipeout video, after he called his mom.
While I was waiting for Josh to call me to come back over, I started reading and hilighting

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my 51'st Diary of an older Series on DiaryLogSite4.
At Joshes I drank my Pepsi as Josh attempted to watch the News which was not on at 1 PM, so we

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made fun of a Soap opera, then Josh chose another dirtbike and 4-Wheeler video, because the first one was too long.
Binks is behind me

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on Joshes L-shaped couch and Buburudici, who resembles Gandalf in every particular, lies atop Joshes kitchen counter-shelf by his 7-Up can Sailship. Dirtbikes

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and 4-Wheelers are going up the hill on TV.
While we were watching this video, Joshes cleaning lady from Whills arrived and I

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left, saying goodbye to the cleaning lady and Josh.

Then at home I continue my stream, and watch a rock

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garden dirtbike or horse trail rid by two people on dirtbikes, then after that video ends, some people dirtbiking very fast down some

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dirt roads until they meet up at a big dirt racetrack, and apparently racing either for fun or for a prize, which is all very fun and fascinating to watch. My stepmother always said I need to broaden my

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horizons. I really need to broaden them far and wide. There's so much out there I can see whilst

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remaining grounded holding to the truths I know as I search for truths wonders and sights now

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hid from my view and experience. Books open all doors. I just need to be sure to open the right ones and avoid the wrong

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ones. Bye.

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